chapter 4

Coming back home after dropping her best friends,she thought of how lonely she felt. "but i dont need a man in my life,i dont need someone to tell me they love me or cant live without me,im fine like this" but she really wasn't,she dreamed for prince charming.

She arrived home around midnight,quietly unlocking the villa door and stepping in,she heard his voice.
"Basma?"His voice came from the living room.
"oh!"Surprised to see him still awake"dont you have work tomorrow?you should be sleeping hehe"
"i do,but im not sleepy,your mother said i should wait for you"
"really?why?where are mama and baba?7ata bader,i dont see his car"Basma peered through the window to double make sure she hasnt seen her brothers car parked outside.
"didnt they tell you?they are spending the weekend in oman!"
"no they didnt :( oh well,have a goodnight fahad,i have to sleep"
"t9b7een 3ala 5air basoom"

She went to her bedroom,changed into her pijamas,and crawled under her covers.She was happy that she'll start riding tomorrow,since she hadn't had the chance ever since they came back from the summer holidays.

"basooma,habebty,regadty?"She heard Fahad ask behind the door.

Habebty?She opened her eyes wide,confused.She kept quiet. 

"basma 7ayaty?"He opened the doors,and walked into her bedroom.What was this?What is he doing?

He sat on the edge of her bed,calling her name,but she didn't reply.What the fuck?What does he want?She was scared,but she wondered what did he want.She gulped down her fears.
"Fahad?shu teba?"She asked while faking a yawn.
"Basma"He whispered as he got closer to her.She couldn't move.

He lifted my t-shirt up,revealing her stomach,but she didnt move a muscle. His hands started wondering.
"get ur hands off of me"She pushed his hands away.
"basma please,just a little"He begged.
"little what?YOU FREAK!GET AWAY"She yelled in fear.What was going to happen?
"basma please dont do this"He held her hands tightly.
"nooo get off"But she couldn't defend herself,he was much stronger and larger than her.

His eyes were so scary,so red,needy,she could see how much he wanted this,how much he wanted her.His smile was the smile of a cheater,a deceiver,and a liar. She never saw this side of him,he was always the sweet,kind,lovable Fahad. Who was this monster?She cried. She cried out for her mother,her father,Bader,anyone so they can hear her fear and pain while his hands fulfilled his satisfaction.
His lips found hers,forcefully he kissed her. She felt disgusted,she felt naked,exposed to something she knew was wrong,and was against religion.

He came on top of her,his hands still moving around and pressing.
"tell me you like it basma"He whispered with pleasure.
She shut her mouth.
"please basma"He moaned.
She started crying a river,tears wetting her cheeks.
"dont cry basooma,please dont"He wiped the tears that were coming down."tell me you love me,say a7bck fahad"
Voices of cries came from her mouth,and it was not what he wanted to hear.
"SAY IT U BITCH"He pulled her hair,and with his hands,he bruised her right upper thigh.
She screamed with pain,and finally gave in "a-a-a-7bck faha-a-a-ad" She said behind her tears and pain.

After his satisfaction was done,he left her on her bed,confused,alone,and cold.What just happened?What was he doing?Why?Questions she couldn't answer or rather feared to know the truth.
She knew stories about rape and sexually abusing people. But she never thought she would witness or rather go through it. She cried that night. She wanted her mother.

She trusted him,she never thought Fahad would do such a thing.His parents are dead for heavens sake,her father toke him into care,raised him as his own since her father also lost a dear brother.

I've become a bad person now.No you haven't,what happened was not your fault!You couldn't stop him.Well he was stronger.You liked it.NO I DIDNT.Is it rape?.No ofcourse not.Listen basma,never speak of this to anyone ever again,and if he tries anything,you will stop him this time.

She read aloud some verses of the Qura'an and slept. 

chapter 3

"look at him,hes so handsome"Lulu staring at the man struggling with his chopsticks at Pingpong-Thedubaimall.
"Lulu leave the boy alone!basch wala!its YOU whos making him nervous,he cant even hold the chopsticks,stop staring"Afra gave Lulu a punch on the shoulders.
"OUCH U SLUT!THAT HURTS!"and they started a fight in the middle of the restaurant.
A typical Thursday night out with her girls before senior year starts.
"guys we're finally going to graduate!oh my god i cant believe this"Shatha randomly said.
"u were reading my mind shushu"Basma replied.
"oh my god im still a virgin!"Lulu stated"I have to loose my virginity before senior years ends"
"ARE YOU SERIOUS?I'LL KILL THIS GIRL"Afra looked at them while again,giving Lulu a punch on the shoulders.
"STOP THAT!I was joking JEEEEEZ by the end of this year, i have to get a average above 85% and still look flawless,AND ofcourse i'll still be with Rashid"Lulu said,drifting into a daydream about her boyfriend.Lulu started dating Rashid in year 11,and she's more than happy.She may be a player,looking at guys here and there,smiling to one and the other,but one thing about her is that she is VERY faithful."What about u girls?Haa 3afaryy?"
"well,first loose weight,dye my hair,apply to a university outside Dubai,and fix the schools cafeteria!!"Afra answered happily.
"what about Hamad?"Shatha asked"u havnt mentioned him"
Basma and Lulu shot a death stare at Shatha.
"whaaaaaaaat?"Shatha whispered embarrassed, not knowing the reason.
"hey guys its ok!im over it!Shatha i'll tell u everything later,and it was for the best,we BOTH talked about it and we're fine now,wala im ok"Afra replied quickly,but deep down,her best friends knew she wasnt because going through a break up is hard,even though she dated him for 4 months,they all saw how madly in love she was with him.
"OK AND U SHUSHU?"Lulu tried changing the subject.
"Me?well u all know im going to london starting 2nd term,and i'll finish my studies there,i planned to meet a handsome saudi guy and marry him!"
"Shushu why do u have to go?" ... "You cant miss senior year" ... "I HATE UR DAD"
They all pleaded and begged her not to go,but fathers orders.They thought it wasn't fair for Shatha to miss the most important year in their lives just because her father has been upgraded in his job and must leave his country.
"enzain w enti basooom"Shushu asked Basma.
"i have no idea"Basma replied,she really was clueless about her year,she had no specific achievement like her friends.
"well for starters u should get a guy!"Lulu said.
"if i see someone who knocks me down,i'll surely get him lulu lat5afain ;p"
"do u know what sex is?"
"fuck u lulu,yes i do,and what does this have to do with anything?"Basma replied annoyed by her friends question.
"i dont know i just wanted to be sure if u know how do babies form"
"SHEEEESSSHHHH just because im not into guys as much as u are doesnt mean i dont know about sex -.-"Rolling her eyes,Basma felt a little jealous of her friends,they all had relationships but her.
"SHES A MANEATER MAKE U WANT MORE"Shushu started singing to Lulu.
Then Afra joined,and so did Basma.

Chapter 2

"look at her!Isnt she beautiful?"
"Yes she is,6al3ah 3ala umha"
She smiled to her mother and father with a feeling of security and love.
"Just look at her smiles!"
"fdait hal ebtesamah ana"Her father said,squeezing her cheeks.
"habeby!i found the perfect name!"Her mother exclaimed excitedly.
"Ibtisamah?"Her father suggested.
"NNOOO!"She hit him on his shoulders"BASMA"And looked at the angelic child,ofcourse she was still smiling.

She was put into a mixed school till year 10,then moved to a school where girls and boys were seperated during classes and lunch breaks. She was popular in junior school,all the girls followed her around,and boys sent love notes.She was,to many adults,a charming intelligent young lady. She had manners of the upper class,and was an A* student. Her parents were proud of the young lady they had raised.

Her childhood was perfect,filled with happy moments with families and friends. Growing up in a wealthy family,she almost had everything she ever wanted.She wasnt spoiled,but she did get everything she asked for. Being the youngest daughter,her parents loved her the most.Her two older siblings werent jealous,but adored their baby sister.Her older sister played dress up games with Her.Her brother,who was 5 years older,taught her how to swim and fight.
She grew fond of horses,and as soon as she mumbled the word "pony" and "horse",her father enrolled me into the finest and most expensive horse riding clubs.There she was trained by professional trainers from the US,the UK and many other countries.

Due to her mothers fear of being mixed with boys at this certain age,she decided to move her daughter to a more conservative school,where boys and girls werent as close. When she changed her school,she said goodbye to many close friends that she have come to love during the past 9 years. But her mom said "habebty,its time to grow up and let go of ur childhood,u'll love ur new school!Trust me,mummy knows best" yes ofcourse,mummy always knows best.

Year 10 was a new year for her,a new school and new friends but she blended in very well.In two days,she was the most talked about girl,and everyone wanted to be friend her.And adding to that,she became a woman,she reached puberty and her body started changing,her breasts became larger and her curves started growing more.She didn't get a Kim Kardashian body,but she was very close to it. Nobody noticed her physical change ofcourse,but he did,and oh how he loved how slowly she grew into a woman. He admired how she hunched her back,trying not to show off her breasts. He started hungrily from behind as she passed by him. Nobody noticed his eyes,nobody even little Basma did not notice.

Year 11 had been the same as well,still popular,still enchanting,still Basma Saeed Al-X,the A* student that everyone looked up too.

Year 12,everything changed.EVERYTHING.

chapter 1

Hello there.
Have you ever felt that life is unfair?Have you ever wanted to just scream?Have you ever thought of suicide?Well,trust me,i don't think your life is as bad!
She's called Basma Saeed Al-X,reflecting from her name,you'd think she was as happy as a kid who watches Barney.Your wrong.
Dear reader,this is not a fairy tale,there is no happy ending.If you feel uncomfortable,i advise you to stop this instant.

I advise readers under the age of 16 years old to close the page immediately.haha.Who am i kidding?You'll never close this page, you little small monsters.

*scratches head* now how did it all start? aahh yes,here we go.

unfair 6

"KASALAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA"Lulu screamed when i picked her up from her house on the first day of senior year.
"la habebty we're going to kaslan"Shatha said.
"SHUSHU! ur already forgetting Dubai!ur saying kaslan instead of RASLAN"3afary yelled.
"fdait chabdkom kelkom"Lulu squeezed herself between us in the car.
"u guys,im in love"I confessed.
"WHAT THE FUCK?" ... "Mnu?" ...."yal chathabeh" ..... "akeeeed el draiwal"
"oh fuck off lulu"giving her a mean look
"sheeeesh im sorry,who is it?"She gave me puppy eyes.
I sighed,every since i met Anas,i thought of him,well i just did for an entire day,but still i've never been so caught up like this.
"EARTH TO BASMA YAL 5ANZEERA"3afary screamed.
"huh?"shit i was day dreaming
"oooOOWWWWWW someones HOWNNYYY in THE MAWWNIINNN'"Lulu sang.Typical Leila.
"aaaayyyyy hes handsome ok?let me be!"defending myself and my hormones.
They all cracked up.

We reached school,got our locker keys,sorted out our classes,and before i could tell them who it was,the first bell rang and i rushed to our Math class.

"MR. THANI!!!!!!!!!!missed me?"I greeted my favorite teacher in the whole wide world.
"9ba7 el 5eir,keeefk basma?shu kanat el 9ayfeyee emnee7a?3ala zaw2eek?"He smiled.
"aih 3ala zaw2ee"We chatted about our summers till the class filled up.

"yalla ebnebdaa2 .......... "
the whole class screamed " NOOOOOOOOO" ... "ITS THE FIRST DAY" ...  "PLEASE MR." ... "IR7MOOOONNAAAA"
After lots of moans and whines,he gave up and we won a free class.

Me and Shatha were mostly in the same classes,so she got her chair beside me.

"SPILL"she gave me a serious look.I laughed and told her about Anas,and how handsome he was.
"but basooom,isnt he a little old?"She looked worried.
"i dont caaaaaare shushu,hes nice and handsome,and i like him"I moaned.
"i dont know,i have a weird feeling about this"
"i'll tell the other we'll see how they feel,and u always feel weird about everything!!!!"
"well sorry,i think its wrong liking someone whos OLDER and ur TRAINER,its like a porn video"
"why have u ever watched porn like that?"
"no ofcourse not!"
"or have you?" *winks*
"bassssoooommmmmmmm -.-"

After school was done,i rushed back home to get changed into my horse riding clothes.
"ana aw9lch"I heard Fahad voice from the living room.
I ignored him,and i will not sit in the same car.
"basoom sema3teeni?"He yelled.
"YES I HEARD YOU"I dialed my mothers number.
"alo?'
"mama wein raju?he's taking me to horse riding in 5 minutes"
"la habebty fahad yewa9lch yalla bye"She hung up.

"........THE FUCK?"I closed my eyes,i knew how this day would end.

I sat in the back seat,scared.
"balach 5ayfah?"he peered at me through the mirror.
I closed my eyes. Wishing for safety and just arrive to the bloody club.

unfair 5

I opened my eyes,trying to remember what happened yesterday,but i forgot,or rather forced myself to forget.
I toke a shower and started getting ready for my horse riding lesson.
"good morning mama"i greeted her with a smile and a kiss on her head while she sat on the kitchen table sipping her coffee.
"9ba7 el 5air basma,sa3a kam radeh el bar7eh?masema3t 7esch!"
"oohhh"shit what time did i come up yesterday night?it wasnt 1am right?
"3amty radat el sa3a heda3sh w ne9,sheft'ha dasheh el beit lat5afain"fahad appeared with a wink at me.
i wanted to throw up on an empty stomach.
"habeeeby fahad walah,che aback dooom mentbh 3ala yayat bnt'na el 9'3eera"my mum told him,smiling.
"okkkaaayyy im going now or i'll be late"i picked up a piece of toast and quickly tried to leave.
"ana aw9lch,shu raych 3amty??"fahad suggested. This time,i ran out of the house and i heard my mother calling my name but i ignored her.He is not ruining my lesson,its the only time i get to be alone without being afraid of someone coming after me.

I reached the club and walked towards the stables,i waited for about 5 minutes but my trainer didnt show up.So i got the horse out,and i climbed on it.

Walking towards the arena.

"u really are an enthusiastic student,early and already walking towards the arena"i heard a manly sound and a laugh.
Confused.i turned around to see who it was,and my eyes widened.
His smile.It was amazingly beautiful.He was tall,extremely tall.He was wide shouldered.He was dark skinned,you could say he has the golden tan color.His hair dark brown and messy.He was too far to see his eyes,but i could tell they were breathtaking aswell.

"and you are?"giving an how-dare-you-talk-to-me voice,trying to sound all smart and posh.
"im ur new trainer ofcourse"walking towards me.
"what happened to Clair??"still confused
"she left for the holidays,i'll be here only for a few weeks till she gets back"He gave me his breathtaking smile again.
"oh she didnt mention anything about that!"Still confused.
"check ur e-mail when u go back home"He gave me a wink,and he led the horse to the arena.
I was still staring at him,he was so handsome.

He stopped the horse,and looked up at me.
"im very rude sorry!i havent introduced myself,im mr Anas YXYX"He gave me his hands.
I shoke his hands"and i am ....."
He interrupted me "you are the beautiful basma!i heard all about you"He called me beautiful :') marry me?
"what did u hear exactly???"i was curious
"oh dont worry hahaha it was all good"again giving me a wink.i loved his winks.

After the lesson,i was sweating like a pig.
He helped me down the horse,although we both knew i was capable of that,but i felt very secure when he held my waist and carried me down.The same feeling when my parents held me when i was young.

"i will see you tomorrow basma,and it was nice meeting you finally"He,again,gave me his hands.
"my pleasure mr anas YXYX,but finally?i dont understand hehe"I shoke his hands.
He just laughed and again winked,i think i should get used to his winks because my heart skips a beat everytime he gives me one.
He walked away,leaving me,half paralyzed,half not wanting to move and keep staring at him,but the horse bumped his head into mine,ruining my moment.
"uf u naughty thing!i liked looking at him,between me and u,i think im falling in love"i kissed the horse on his head and left.